The end of this school year is coming. For some kids that is an exciting time, for others not so much. For me it means an end and a beginning. Some of my students I will never see again this side of heaven. Others I’ll see again, but things will never again be the way they are now. That is an end. It also means that I will be starting whatever it is God has planned for me next. I have an idea of what that may be, and I make plans, but I won’t know how things will turn out till the future is today. That can be both frightening and exciting. Life is full of ends and beginnings. When I was younger I didn’t handle that well. I expected people to betray me at any time, and I always expected things to get worse. Since that was my point of view it colored the way I saw the world. I ignored good things, or eyed them suspiciously. There is still a part of me, though it seems to be shrinking over time, that feels uncomfortable when things are going good. It looks past the good, knowing that one day it will end, and the bad will come. And yes, things can always get worse. But I have learned something over time. When that voice inside me that says the end is coming, whispers in my heart that this will all end, I have learned to say “so what”. Yes, there is an end coming. Yes, tomorrow may be worse that today. So what?
Hebrews 13: 5-6
God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?”
Tomorrow maybe rainbows and sunshine, or darkness and despair. Either way God will be with me. Even when I turned my back on Him, when I turned around he was still there. Things might be hard, Things might be good. God will be there to help me deal with both things.
1 John 5 14-15
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.
Yes, sometimes God says no. But he takes the time to listen, and he won’t leave us. I was looking at that poster Tuesday. It says draw a picture of God’s love. At first I thought that is really hard. Then I knew what I would draw. I would draw myself curled up in ball crying. The background would be nothing but black, except for one thing. I would draw Jesus standing beside me with his hand right here on the top of my head. The God of the Universe walks into my miserable little life and says “Yes, that happened, but it will be alright.” That to me is God’s love.
I can’t tell you whether this summer will be rainbows and sunshine, or darkness and despair. But I can tell you God will be there with you regardless, and he will listen to you. Turn to the Lord thru good times and bad. He is always there.